Impending doom

     I've not exactly had a chance to discuss in all the ways i'm bat shit crazy, but today presented an opportunity to shed light on only one of the many.  Unfortunately, due to my insanity, i do not work.  I struggle daily to function on the most fundamental levels.  I have no definitive diagnosis, but I am seeking disability currently. I've had problems my entire life with people.  I constantly think they're talking about me, and when I go into public it's as if the walls are closing in on me.  If it weren't for my husband, I don't think I could manage.  Anyways, alas I digress.  Because I fail as a human being, we lack funds.  Today we were able to get a food box, but the entire time we were there all I wanted to do was turn, hit the door, and continue running until I was far far away from all the eyes.  I managed the food box and a book store, and made it safely home.  After some liquid nerve killer, today's events are shrinking into perspective.  So, Cheers to all of my over anxious, depressed, confused, anti-social, and yes even my fully functional brethren and sisters. :D 

Introduction to the nothingness that is me.

     It's nearly 11 p.m. and I'm wide awake staring at my computer screen like I do the better part of everyday.  I don't have anything happening in my life that isn't happening in the homes of nearly every other human being in the world.  I have however decided to chronicle the goings on that occur in my world.  I doubt I'll acquire any followers, but that's alright. It also won't stop me from talking to the 'room' like I have an audience, but I'm not doing this for the notoriety or popularity that swim around so many bloggers.  I'm doing this out of pure boredom.  I'll share my opinions, finds, and experiences.  Hello to anybody reading :) nice to have you here. If I strike a nerve, feel free to comment.  For the most part I'm what I consider a shut in.  I leave my home maybe 2 or 3 times a week, for a total of 2 hours or so.  The only friends I have are my family, and even that is my immediate family.  I have three children and three dogs, all of which I adore.  Alright, one of my dogs is a complete and total nut job and drives me bat shit crazy.  I've been married 16 years to the man of my dreams.  Depending on the day, depends on whether that dream is full of puppy dogs and rainbows, or the most wretched nightmare I've ever had.  My pets are a great deal of my world, so I'll be talking about them a lot.  I may post once a month, or seven times a day.  In addition, like many other apartment dwellers, I loathe my neighbors.. the pond scum sucking douche bags that they are.  But, come on I don't want to be showing my dark and bitter side just yet.  Oh heck, who am I kidding, that's my only side.  However, the rantings of a crazed woman shall take a rest for the night, simply because there's nothing worth adding to this new found toy.  Sleep well...